It’s imperative that I learned how to build a life on my own, separate from any one person. The same way a person breaks in order to find themselves whole again. The same way one might appreciate the light a little more after stumbling lost through the darkness of the night. I sometimes regret that it takes a life to live. If I could go back with the knowledge I have now…how different things would be. We can’t linger there too long, its dangerous. We have to continue to focus on moving forward. At all times, or else we might lose sight. We can’t lose sight of what’s ahead. We are so unsure of what lies ahead and so uncomfortable in what is presently happening that it makes life an overwhelming mess of emotions all the time. It’s quite an unpleasant mix.